EtoileVoidGalaxia

It's so tempting to just eat the world, to just set it alight and watch it all burn down with the state of affairs. Since I'm currently busy with classes and my friend group irl is so stunted by my social anxiety I feel so helpless to make any meaningful changes, and even if I weren't bogged down with classwork and crippled with a fear of failing to speak sentences successfully to others I still feel helpless knowing so many others have also done this, raised signs and protested, and the end result always seems to just be luck of the draw.

And like deep down I know. I know that the psychology behind it is that when people are focused on smaller problems in front of them (work, school, etc.) they forget about the larger problems beyond them, and it just... It blinds them. It's a manipulation tactic used to ensnare people into cults—to bind people to abusive relationships.

To bind people to abusive systems.

I watched Philosophy Tube's video on the failings of the UK health system, and a precursory glance at the comments already has me enraged. Its so easy to look to the USA's healthcare and sigh, with the healthcare more freely available in Canada, where I live, but hearing people living in fear for their lives from being perpetually denied service simply because they're a woman or they aren't white, or what the fucking ever.

Watching the USA burn below, I didn't even realize that the Canadian bill of C-11 passed until it was way too fucking late.

"At least it's not like the US! At least we're better off than the US!!" That cannot be our fucking standards. Why? You wanna be just a little shuffle better than the people over there? you wanna have all the same issues except maybe one, so that you can claim you're so much better?

You know what—you wanna know what is worse than the USA right now? Our fucking housing market. Someone on tiktok is currently documenting the fucking upheaval of the housing market in BC which, is worse than it is in the USA. Shitty little houses in BC can cost more than an island in other countries—you could buy a castle with the money it takes to buy a house.

I just—I want to fix it all. I want to tear everything apart and fix it. You can practically see the people suffering under these fucked up systems. How, people are denied their health rights, how people are unable to find a house—unable to pay rent. And then the C-11 bill aka, the "online streaming act" aka, the ability for the Canadian government to control what streaming media (including tiktok and youtube) is being presented to Canadian citizens. Anything that isn't Canadian content (as decreed by various legal documents you'll have to sign) will be left to the wayside while whatever is "Canadian content" will be pushed up in the algorithm.

Knowing governments, I will very soon see very little about these problems on healthcare and the fucked up state of the Canadian housing economy.

I will forget that people are suffering as I stress about my next exam, or about some other, smaller social problem, that has little to do with our shitty government officials, and people will die, and their blood will be on my hands, and the hands of everyone else that couldn't do anything to change the system—to scream at our government officials until they changed.

And the blood is on my hands, because for some reason, the population has to do so damn much to enact proper change to save themselves.

I just. I fucking hate it.



Experimenting experimenting experimenting.

I'm not sure what I'll use this place for but eventually I hope it'll be something of the madman's corkboard for my writing—with text instead of images.

Idk. Maybe it could serve as a journal? Or a diary of sorts? Somewhere to practice writing & think about life & all that?

Hmmm. anywhozits. I need to get to bed na.

I'll keep poking at this tomorrow hopefully.